It’s no coincidence that you feel the loneliest when the temperature drops and there’s no food in the house. These are only two lines on a laundry lists of defeats, a list with such entries as “not enough phone calls,” “nothing good on TV,” and “people eating in a cafe, all seemingly happier than me.”
Why this sudden funk? Seasonal affective disorder? Hormone hoopla? Bad pizza?
I went to Famiglia Pizza today, because I craved a good slice of pepperoni pizza and I’ve abandoned Koronet after one really bad slice of cheese pizza. The pepperoni slices all looked utterly congealed with grease and glistening, white fat flecks, so I chose a cheese slice instead. As soon as I sat down at my table, I reached for the mozzarella cheese powder (which mind you, I never use) and the powder’s lid fell off and powder completely covered my pizza.
“Time to update the old list of defeats,” I thought.
Exactly. Doubly, may I add, because the cheese powder was actually some kind of very spicy seasoning. I did my best to wipe it off the pizza in order to salvage the slice, but it was too late. I was eating a meal straight from the spice rack. Sigh. There goes the fulfillment of my pizza craving.
I realize, though, that even if I hadn’t had the spice snafu, the pizza from Famiglia wouldn’t do it for me. I am ruined for life, because of Lombardi’s. I will pass judgement on every single slice of pizza, and if it’s not Lombardi’s, it will never be good enough. Papa John’s, Pizza Hut, and the slew of NYC pizza places will serve me Mrs. de Winter when I know she will never be as good as Rebecca.
Rebecca on 32 Spring Street with the sweet-tangy sauce and pepperonis that look like nipples.
I can’t do anything about the weather or the TV lineup. The phone calls will come in time. And those cheerful people in the cafe are tourists, so I’ll disregard them. The funk is hard to fight, but I’m willing to try. I need reinforcements, sooo…anyone up for some pizza?
Amanda….
I have told you and told you, when you let others make you happy, they can take it away and you are left empty. Make your own happiness, and let others bask in it… NOT the other way around!